Friday, January 25, 2008

Each soul can only bear so much

A week ago I felt I'd reached once more rock bottom. I wallowed in tragedy and forgot the vow I had taken upon myself in 2006 "Nobody and nothing is worth the hours I lay in bed pondering my own misery or even death ". Then your letters started filling up my inbox, and I found out how much people care regardless of opinions and disagreements. I want to thank all of you who sent me letters and left comments here. The special thanks though will go to Maya M and her beautiful post with the adapted poem "when things go wrong".....

However, it was Safia's comment that woke me up . How could I forget that beautiful Quranic verse she quoted? Below is the full version:

"286. La yukallifu Allahu nafsan illa wusAAaha laha ma kasabat waAAalayha ma iktasabat rabbana la tuakhithna in naseena aw akhtana rabbana wala tahmil AAalayna isran kama hamaltahu AAala allatheena min qablina rabbana wala tuhammilna ma la taqata lana bihi waoAAfu AAanna waighfir lana wairhamna anta mawlana faonsurna AAala alqawmi alkafireena " [ref]

Safia put her thumb on the problem and the solution ( thank you sis). Read the translation and you will understand:

"286 On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray:) "Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which Thou didst lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector; Help us against those who stand against faith." [ref] emphasis mine .

I had a flash of understanding, it was so simple really :)

Highlander could bear the burden, it was the "someone had become the sole list" who did not have enough strenght to bear it and preferred to jump the train early on.
So if God Himself does NOT burden us human beings with more than we can take, who was I as a human to expect another human to accept more than that human could bear ? Nah that would be too much on the poor soul. That was when a big smile formed on my face, their was no need for desperation anymore.


PH said...

Well I'm glad everything is back to normal and you have overcome whatever it was that was bothering you ... stay strong.


Brave Heart said...

I'm so happy that you come back with more energy. i know that u r strong enough.
Take care

a_akak said...

Nothing in life is worth taking the time away from yourself, Nothing in life is worth the pain, Nothing in life is worth the stress, but anything in life is worth a smile ... so put a smile, a smile that can glow in the darkest of darks and be positive that Allah will sorts things out and may you never feel pain

I hope u r ok, I hope things r fine & Insha allah u will be stronger

Fe Aman Allah

Maya M said...

I am happy that you are back on your rails, and thank you!
Safia found a good quote indeed. I know that she also has a difficult moment now. The polar differences in our views and personalities prevented me from turning to her in 2nd person and reading her writings. Nevertheless, I wish her the best and hope she will soon come out of her difficulties and restore the blog, it was an interesting blog not to read.

UT said...


Nothing and no one is worth the depression we put ourselves in. Life is full of trials and tests, and its not a matter of passing or failing but of the experience one learns.

Smile dearest and the world will smile back at you !
May Allah bless and protect you always.

ibeebarbie said...

Salam Highlander,

Allahakbar! Isn't it absolutely incredible how Allah knows exactly when, where, and how to send the right people, right words, perfect song, whatever it may be to get our attention and to touch our souls.

Glad to hear you are feeling better. If you ever need to talk, please let me know.

Highlander said...

PH, Brave, Akak, Maya, UT, Ibee :) thankk you - nothing will dampen this fighting spirit!

MusicLover said...

This a nice song

Mitchell said...

"The Arab forbidden love"! ;-)

Amina said...

very good post...I'm curriently under some dark cloud with feeling that it rains on me, but it made me feel better after reading it, thx